The long awaited break

With a sip of tea, I try to imagine the excitement of being on my own once again. Well, I've always been but with terms & conditions based on situations. Among all those daring acts so far, would count this trip as one along, I smile. Am not able to plan things in advance, which in turn makes things more adventurous..beyond the capacity of mind's imaginations!

               The long awaited break.. yes, it was. Probably a long wait, coz it cost two-years planning with no outcome. Couldn't believe it happening until my journey began. Trip could have been called off at any moment and I had no back up plan except to waste the days off with despair.

              Keeping in mind the evil incident that took place in Delhi and the public protests leading to unpredictable situations, no doubt that fear creep in the heart beyond own will. But mind was set, risk had to be taken or else I could kiss my struggling fate and sit at one place trying to be safe. Btw, the World didn't end unfortunately hence, it was well understood that I have many more years to live.. not to forget, at will. One can only live the present on own terms coz past can't repeat and future is unpredictable as well as unknown. At least, things never occurred as presumed in my case, no clue how is it for others.

                    Awesome winter, friends, movie, mall, Kingdom of dreams, shopping, paratha, Vat 69.. couldn't be any better! A perfect break.

puzzles of life - mind buzz - mind goes empty :-/

I keep thinking.. "non-stop"

Logics pop up in mind.. "random"

Imaginations keep flowing.. "unlimited"

Wish I could have just shut the door of my mind. Or could have put a "full stop" at any point of time to stop the thought process.

Desires of mine.. "unknown"

Wishes from the heart..  "confusing"

Focus of the eyes.. "directionless"

Things that I want or desire for, seems confusing to me at times making no sense.. b'coz the very nature of human beings are completely unpredictable. How can I be sure that a person won't change his/her mind or heart in future? It's too much to be true - words kept.. as was promised, behavior to remain d same though the years, life goes on.. as planned. Gives me a weird feeling remembering the fact that "Nothing is permanent"!

To always think negative.. "pessimism"

Being positive and to hope for the best.. "optimist"

To analyze-judge a situation based on prior experience & instinct.. "constructive thinking"

At times, it's good to be fooled by circumstances coz 'conscience' is the last thing one can avoid even if he/she's able to avoid the whole world. Being a pessimist, only lets one to be conscious about the worst situation.. although it depends on the individual as to what extent the negative thoughts hover the mind. The way I look at things, same experience shouldn't happen.. and trust me, rarely, good experiences get repeated :)

Left on one's own.. "alone"

Being on own by choice.. "independent"

A preference of leading or being lead.. "is upto YOU"

Fate does not always act on it's own. Instead, the course of action one takes and decisions that are taken leads to situations which arise and thus the outcome.. of your own "karma".