My share of doubts

Wonder if the game of puzzles play on others' mind too!
Moments when the mind wanders off
With a lost stare at people passing by and I wonder -
if similar thoughts cross their mind too?
To sit over a place silently yet, mind keeps buzzing;
Those endless list of stupid thoughts;
Questions, which cannot be asked,
Answers, which cannot be sought after-
Yet, remains in thoughts to ponder over,
I think about my share of doubts.

There are memorable instances, lived upon once -
Moments when heart skipped a beat
Ears seemed to hear absolutely nothing,
vision blurred even with wide open eyes.
Mind now casts upon a veil of those memories,
causing a smile to run across the lips.
Endless beautiful moments to cherish
Yet.. the past never repeats
and time once gone, never rewinds;
Being an optimiat, I have my share of doubts.

Times when I look at someone;
trying to capture as much into my memory box;
Then, those prolonged stare at the old pictures.
often, when I have had flashback of events
taking me back into the memory lane;
Almost, living the good times once again
even though momentarily, but happily
To know that nothing lasts forever
Hopes still form, remain and tend to flourish
And thus remain - my share of doubts.

The courtship

There always comes a situation, just too often
Between the intellectual Mind and the beautiful Heart
Like a Man and a Lady
To keep the honor, each makes a stand.

Both remain cordially within the same being
Yet, with different perspectives and outlook
More than they realize; things turn into a war
Unavoidable encounter, but sure to occur.

It's the witty and analytical Mind
with thoughts never-ending and pacing up
Always conscious, alert and judgemental;
Why can't it let the emotions through the thick skull for once?

Full of love, feelings and care, there's the Heart
naive, honest,  untamed and instantaneous;
With immense faith, why does it speed up like a moth
mesmerized towards the flame, wonders the Mind.

Attracted and impressed by each other, they always are;
A perfect blend yet with a never-ending conflict,
Both determined and true by individual nature
Creation as such gifted to humans; a bliss and a conjugal affair.

All that I wished for

To rest my head on his chest

Moments of heart out laughter;

Love to fill the heart and make appease

with all the sorrows within it.

A look of affection and longing,

to find in those eyes - the unsaid emotions.

To feel his presence being miles apart

is luck, beyond bars and conditions.

To hold his hand timeless and aimlessly 

or remain tucked under his arm

One look each time, to melt the heart like never before;

To know that he's mine and I'm his, is an outcharm.

To speak out mind and heart until there's nothing more left.

To hold him so close, yet uptight and know

with each time when heart skips a beat -

Happiness is all that I wanted and was selfish for.

All I did was to fall in love;

Yet, never to claim it.

To loose my heart knowing the risk;

To love and be loved... is all that I wished for.